Tuesday, November 29, 2011

i need strength

i start work today after a two month maternity leave and it is the worst feeling ever. now i know how every mother feels like when having to leave their babies in the care of someone else. if that someone else is a family member e.g mother, mother in law, aunt, relative it would be a different story but leaving your baby in the care of a total stranger is a different story and a different feeling altogether. of course it's someone we trust but the feeling is still not the same.
i was a complete waterworks since last night when it really dawned on me that i no longer have the luxury of spending every single minute with my baby. when i looked at her face, my tears came by and in fact i'm getting watery eyed as i type this. *sigh* it is such a heavy feeling but a mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do.

Irene at two months young on 1 Muharram. i'm gonna stop now before the waterworks start!